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Bipolar In Me
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Bipolar In Me
by Travis Balitz
First of all I want to commemorate myself for sticking to the plan and getting this artwork done. This airbrush painting has been very very taxing on my body and the truth is I never enjoyed facing it, nor exposing it, nor dealing with it --- normally I do what the fuck I want when I want and leave it at that. It is true, I have bipolar disorder type 2 but I never enjoyed talking about it, facing the problem, nor enjoyed dealing with the regulation of medications and my mental history. I had about 22 different types of medications in my body, various antidepressants, anti-psychotics, a few anti-anxieties and the likes with poor results. But I felt if I finished this artwork in spite how sensitive I was to the pains of this work, I thought I would help draw my anxieties to a close with a full disclosure of my "weak" self in an artwork. From the start I took it serious, even brought a chain saw in my house to get my family to back off so I could focus on this. Yep, I am still that kind of crazy. But I don't think that has changed at all. Anyways, perhaps people out there may have had a history or problems with jobs, dealing with family, meds, homelessness, ect. This could pertains to you to and perhaps that's what I wanted to get out of it the emotions, the physical sense of what happens in the mind of someone that experiences such crisises. Not necessarily the bad stuff comes out of this, but the good stuff like with the mania as well. Perhaps many of you found disclosure with therapy and medications, and that is great.
Anyways, cheers,
Travis
Below I includes some facts about bipolar disorder. People hate negative shit, well at least I do, but I felt this was important. Even though bipolar disorder only affects 2.6 % of the population, it can be very deadly illness. At least to me it was.
PLEASE READ. I DID NOT SPEND MY NIGHT PULLING FACTS FROM MY ASS. THESE ARE SOME SERIOUS ISSUES THAT STATE THE HARD COLD FACTS OF MENTAL ILLNESS, BIPOLAR DISORDER, & HOMELESSNESS. Most people can whisk away at their own family life, like me I am fortunate to have caretakers, but I wholeheartly believe that the airbrush drawing I did, is a solid not creepy representation of the despair of the realities of life.
I am appreciative of the fact that I have a home, not that I never had a consideration of being homeless, which I have but << 875,000 PEOPLE >> with mental illnesses are homeless. THAT IS A LARGE NUMBER. And that is who I dedicated this portrait to but also the cold hard facts of mental illnesses as I stated earlier.
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Facts on bipolar disorder (retrieved from www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageS…)
• Bipolar disorder affects approximately 5.7 million adult Americans, or about 2.6% of the U.S. population age 18 and older every year (National Institute of Mental Health).
• More than TWO-THIRDS of people with bipolar disorder have AT LEAST ONE close relative with the illness or with unipolar major depression, indicating that the disease has a heritable component (National Institute of Mental Health).
• Bipolar disorder is the SIXTH leading cause of DISABILITY in the world. (World Health Organization)
• As many as ONE IN FIVE patients with bipolar disorder COMPLETES SUICIDE. (National Institute of Mental Health)
• Success rates of 70 to 85% were once expected with lithium for the acute phase treatment of mania, however, lithium response rates of only 40 to 50% are now commonplace. (Surgeon General Report for Mental Health)
• Nearly 9 out of 10 consumers with bipolar disorder are satisfied with their current medication(s), although side effects remain a problem. (DBSA, 1999)
• Consumers who report high levels of satisfaction with their treatment and treatment provider have a much more positive outlook about their illness and their ability to cope with it. (DBSA, 1999)
• An estimate of the total cost of bipolar disorder made more than a decade ago was as high as 45 billion dollars per year (www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16…).
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Facts on Homelessness related to Mental Illness
• As many as 3.5 million people experience homelessness in a given year, lived in poverty or 1% of the entire U.S. population (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration).
• 875,000 people are homeless due to mental illness such as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.
• Approximately 16% of the single adult homeless population suffers from some form of severe and persistent mental illness (U.S. Conference of Mayors, 2005).
• 20 to 25% of the homeless population in the United States suffers from some form of severe mental illness (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration).
• For homeless families, mental illness was mentioned by 12% of cities as one of the top 3 causes of homelessness (National Coalition for the Homeless, July 2009)
• Serious mental illnesses disrupt people's ability to carry out essential aspects of daily life, such as self care and household management. Mental illnesses may also prevent people from forming and maintaining stable relationships or cause people to misinterpret others' guidance and react irrationally. This often results in pushing away caregivers, family, and friends who may be the force keeping that person from becoming homeless. As a result of these factors and the stresses of living with a mental disorder, people with mentally illnesses are much more likely to become homeless than the general population (Library Index, 2009).
• A study of people with serious mental illnesses seen by California's public mental health system found that 15% were homeless at least once in a one-year period (Folsom
et al., 2005).
• Patients with SCHIZOPHRENIA AND BIPOLAR DISORDER are particularly vulnerable.
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Support groups
Depression & Bipolar Support Alliance
www.dbsalliance.org/
National Alliance On Mental Illness
www.nami.org/
Emotions Anonymous
www.emotionsanonymous.org/
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WATCH TIME LAPSED VIDEO BELOW:
[under construction]
VIEW ARTWORK HERE:
[under construction]
VIEW PHOTOSHOOT OF ARTWORK HERE:
[under construction]
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Media: Createx Wicked Color Paint
Tools: Iwata Kustom Micron CM-C .23 mm Airbrush, Iwata HP-C .3 mm Airbrush, 0.5 mm Mechanical Pencil, Eraser, Painters Tape, Texturizers
Canvas Material: GALLERYWRAP Artist Canvas
Canvas Size: 24'' x 36''
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My YouTube Page:
www.youtube.com/theairbrushadd…
My Deviant Art Page:
manhopark.deviantart.com
The Artwork Addicts Facebook Page:
www.facebook.com/TheArtworkAdd…
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Song Title: [Under Construction]
Music Composed by [Under Construction]
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A once aspiring songwriter/musician, Travis Balitz, has transitioned himself into Airbrush Art, and has formed the company "The Airbrush Addict." Watch him as he continues to display awesome artwork on various mediums including canvases, automotive surfaces, helmets, bicycles, skateboards, and the like!
If you are are interested in airbrush services, requests and or portraits, feel free leave a message via Deviantart, YouTube or Email. To request rates, terms, conditions, and to discuss business/freelancing opportunities, please contact us by email at theartworkaddicts (at) gmail [dot] com *Only serious, business-related inquiries will be read and answered. Please replace the space and brackets with an "@". This has been done to avoid spam.
Copyright © 2013 Travis Balitz The Airbrush Addict. All Rights Reserved.
by Travis Balitz
First of all I want to commemorate myself for sticking to the plan and getting this artwork done. This airbrush painting has been very very taxing on my body and the truth is I never enjoyed facing it, nor exposing it, nor dealing with it --- normally I do what the fuck I want when I want and leave it at that. It is true, I have bipolar disorder type 2 but I never enjoyed talking about it, facing the problem, nor enjoyed dealing with the regulation of medications and my mental history. I had about 22 different types of medications in my body, various antidepressants, anti-psychotics, a few anti-anxieties and the likes with poor results. But I felt if I finished this artwork in spite how sensitive I was to the pains of this work, I thought I would help draw my anxieties to a close with a full disclosure of my "weak" self in an artwork. From the start I took it serious, even brought a chain saw in my house to get my family to back off so I could focus on this. Yep, I am still that kind of crazy. But I don't think that has changed at all. Anyways, perhaps people out there may have had a history or problems with jobs, dealing with family, meds, homelessness, ect. This could pertains to you to and perhaps that's what I wanted to get out of it the emotions, the physical sense of what happens in the mind of someone that experiences such crisises. Not necessarily the bad stuff comes out of this, but the good stuff like with the mania as well. Perhaps many of you found disclosure with therapy and medications, and that is great.
Anyways, cheers,
Travis
Below I includes some facts about bipolar disorder. People hate negative shit, well at least I do, but I felt this was important. Even though bipolar disorder only affects 2.6 % of the population, it can be very deadly illness. At least to me it was.
PLEASE READ. I DID NOT SPEND MY NIGHT PULLING FACTS FROM MY ASS. THESE ARE SOME SERIOUS ISSUES THAT STATE THE HARD COLD FACTS OF MENTAL ILLNESS, BIPOLAR DISORDER, & HOMELESSNESS. Most people can whisk away at their own family life, like me I am fortunate to have caretakers, but I wholeheartly believe that the airbrush drawing I did, is a solid not creepy representation of the despair of the realities of life.
I am appreciative of the fact that I have a home, not that I never had a consideration of being homeless, which I have but << 875,000 PEOPLE >> with mental illnesses are homeless. THAT IS A LARGE NUMBER. And that is who I dedicated this portrait to but also the cold hard facts of mental illnesses as I stated earlier.
=======================================
Facts on bipolar disorder (retrieved from www.dbsalliance.org/site/PageS…)
• Bipolar disorder affects approximately 5.7 million adult Americans, or about 2.6% of the U.S. population age 18 and older every year (National Institute of Mental Health).
• More than TWO-THIRDS of people with bipolar disorder have AT LEAST ONE close relative with the illness or with unipolar major depression, indicating that the disease has a heritable component (National Institute of Mental Health).
• Bipolar disorder is the SIXTH leading cause of DISABILITY in the world. (World Health Organization)
• As many as ONE IN FIVE patients with bipolar disorder COMPLETES SUICIDE. (National Institute of Mental Health)
• Success rates of 70 to 85% were once expected with lithium for the acute phase treatment of mania, however, lithium response rates of only 40 to 50% are now commonplace. (Surgeon General Report for Mental Health)
• Nearly 9 out of 10 consumers with bipolar disorder are satisfied with their current medication(s), although side effects remain a problem. (DBSA, 1999)
• Consumers who report high levels of satisfaction with their treatment and treatment provider have a much more positive outlook about their illness and their ability to cope with it. (DBSA, 1999)
• An estimate of the total cost of bipolar disorder made more than a decade ago was as high as 45 billion dollars per year (www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/16…).
=======================================
Facts on Homelessness related to Mental Illness
• As many as 3.5 million people experience homelessness in a given year, lived in poverty or 1% of the entire U.S. population (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration).
• 875,000 people are homeless due to mental illness such as schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.
• Approximately 16% of the single adult homeless population suffers from some form of severe and persistent mental illness (U.S. Conference of Mayors, 2005).
• 20 to 25% of the homeless population in the United States suffers from some form of severe mental illness (Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration).
• For homeless families, mental illness was mentioned by 12% of cities as one of the top 3 causes of homelessness (National Coalition for the Homeless, July 2009)
• Serious mental illnesses disrupt people's ability to carry out essential aspects of daily life, such as self care and household management. Mental illnesses may also prevent people from forming and maintaining stable relationships or cause people to misinterpret others' guidance and react irrationally. This often results in pushing away caregivers, family, and friends who may be the force keeping that person from becoming homeless. As a result of these factors and the stresses of living with a mental disorder, people with mentally illnesses are much more likely to become homeless than the general population (Library Index, 2009).
• A study of people with serious mental illnesses seen by California's public mental health system found that 15% were homeless at least once in a one-year period (Folsom
et al., 2005).
• Patients with SCHIZOPHRENIA AND BIPOLAR DISORDER are particularly vulnerable.
=======================================
Support groups
Depression & Bipolar Support Alliance
www.dbsalliance.org/
National Alliance On Mental Illness
www.nami.org/
Emotions Anonymous
www.emotionsanonymous.org/
=======================================
WATCH TIME LAPSED VIDEO BELOW:
[under construction]
VIEW ARTWORK HERE:
[under construction]
VIEW PHOTOSHOOT OF ARTWORK HERE:
[under construction]
=======================================
Media: Createx Wicked Color Paint
Tools: Iwata Kustom Micron CM-C .23 mm Airbrush, Iwata HP-C .3 mm Airbrush, 0.5 mm Mechanical Pencil, Eraser, Painters Tape, Texturizers
Canvas Material: GALLERYWRAP Artist Canvas
Canvas Size: 24'' x 36''
=======================================
My YouTube Page:
www.youtube.com/theairbrushadd…
My Deviant Art Page:
manhopark.deviantart.com
The Artwork Addicts Facebook Page:
www.facebook.com/TheArtworkAdd…
=======================================
Song Title: [Under Construction]
Music Composed by [Under Construction]
=======================================
A once aspiring songwriter/musician, Travis Balitz, has transitioned himself into Airbrush Art, and has formed the company "The Airbrush Addict." Watch him as he continues to display awesome artwork on various mediums including canvases, automotive surfaces, helmets, bicycles, skateboards, and the like!
If you are are interested in airbrush services, requests and or portraits, feel free leave a message via Deviantart, YouTube or Email. To request rates, terms, conditions, and to discuss business/freelancing opportunities, please contact us by email at theartworkaddicts (at) gmail [dot] com *Only serious, business-related inquiries will be read and answered. Please replace the space and brackets with an "@". This has been done to avoid spam.
Copyright © 2013 Travis Balitz The Airbrush Addict. All Rights Reserved.
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The pain of sadness
1 min read
The pain of sadness
What do I do to erase this pain?
Where is your touch and taste, or your last breath of air?
How do you find this peace when you don't know what you are looking for?
Where do you find a place that consoles your soul, that eases the emptiness and dries your tears?
Does a place exist or will I always run away
Who am I and why am I here anyways?
I just want to sleep everyday knowing that I am okay, knowing I will not awake in fear, knowing I will no longer be empty
I once loved you so why can't I find that peace anymore
The headache of reality is something I can't fight no more
I am not at ease, just too tense, and bedridden to misery
I want love, what happened, why does it end up being a dying pleasure
Why do the things I enjoy, I no longer enjoy
The pain of sadness
What do I do to erase this pain?
Where is your touch and taste, or your last breath of air?
How do you find this peace when you don't know what you are looking for?
Where do you find a place that consoles your soul, that eases the emptiness and dries your tears?
Does a place exist or will I always run away
Who am I and why am I here anyways?
I just want to sleep everyday knowing that I am okay, knowing I will not awake in fear, knowing I will no longer be empty
I once loved you so why can't I find that peace anymore
The headache of reality is something I can't fight no more
I am not at ease, just too tense, and bedridden to misery
I want love, what happened, why does it end up being a dying pleasure
Why do the things I enjoy, I no longer enjoy
The pain of sadness
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Kill Me Sharply. Flat Me Naturally.
3 min read
Dear World,
Ow man... what a painful fucking dream... So it started with me in absolute misery... So I ended up outside to the neighbors banging on something... then I went to turn into the house and all of a sudden a Bright Hot Air Balloon crashed into the north side of the house... In that balloon out popped some old lady and some tall attractive brown haired guy. He said something about a ho
t balloon fair.
But I ended up back inside. All of a sudden I ended up laying flat on my back on some blankets on the computer bench in the dark. I think the place was dark. Then all of a sudden I ended up punching like the C4 and E4 on the piano, and the tears started rolling down my eyes. And I was mute. But everytime I punched the keys it felt like a sword was aiming straight into my heart. I did that several times and tears quietly but surely ran down my face... My dad came down to wipe away my tears and I slowly sat passing away but then I woke up feeling WOW WHAT A PAINFUL FUCKING DREAM... but the interpretation is very very vague.
1. I made a choice to not take a hot air balloon with some hot brown haired model guy (trust me I ain't fucking gay, but some reason he was in there with some old lady) and I chose to leave to go inside.
2. There is a vague representation on my choices in life. There was no recollection of music composition - BUT that interpretation of piano tuning. There was a period in my life in which piano tuning was very very hard on my eyes, so hard I'd be throwing sensory overload issues.
So what does this mean:
A. I have quit music, so thus i suffer a torturous dream. Though composing music was not suggested, I quit composing music, to avoid the insane itchiness as result of this. It could mean I am in great pain and should continue to compose music to avoid the pain.
B. I should continue to piano tune, though the possibility of doing it is causing great suffering, cause of the insomnia making it an unrealistic career? There was a period of time in which making music was so hard on my eyes it was a slight torture. This is represented by the tears OR
C. I should continue to piano tune, because if I don't then I am going to end up on my death bed
D. No Fitness, OR Airbrushing Or OTHER JOB was in there, so I am mourning on quitting my music endeavors. If I hold off a little longer, and quit music all together, Id may have a chance to stabilize myself.
Ow man... what a painful fucking dream... So it started with me in absolute misery... So I ended up outside to the neighbors banging on something... then I went to turn into the house and all of a sudden a Bright Hot Air Balloon crashed into the north side of the house... In that balloon out popped some old lady and some tall attractive brown haired guy. He said something about a ho
t balloon fair.
But I ended up back inside. All of a sudden I ended up laying flat on my back on some blankets on the computer bench in the dark. I think the place was dark. Then all of a sudden I ended up punching like the C4 and E4 on the piano, and the tears started rolling down my eyes. And I was mute. But everytime I punched the keys it felt like a sword was aiming straight into my heart. I did that several times and tears quietly but surely ran down my face... My dad came down to wipe away my tears and I slowly sat passing away but then I woke up feeling WOW WHAT A PAINFUL FUCKING DREAM... but the interpretation is very very vague.
1. I made a choice to not take a hot air balloon with some hot brown haired model guy (trust me I ain't fucking gay, but some reason he was in there with some old lady) and I chose to leave to go inside.
2. There is a vague representation on my choices in life. There was no recollection of music composition - BUT that interpretation of piano tuning. There was a period in my life in which piano tuning was very very hard on my eyes, so hard I'd be throwing sensory overload issues.
So what does this mean:
A. I have quit music, so thus i suffer a torturous dream. Though composing music was not suggested, I quit composing music, to avoid the insane itchiness as result of this. It could mean I am in great pain and should continue to compose music to avoid the pain.
B. I should continue to piano tune, though the possibility of doing it is causing great suffering, cause of the insomnia making it an unrealistic career? There was a period of time in which making music was so hard on my eyes it was a slight torture. This is represented by the tears OR
C. I should continue to piano tune, because if I don't then I am going to end up on my death bed
D. No Fitness, OR Airbrushing Or OTHER JOB was in there, so I am mourning on quitting my music endeavors. If I hold off a little longer, and quit music all together, Id may have a chance to stabilize myself.
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I am now asking for airbrush portraiture request!. You can request anything on any various medium of your choice. The medium, other than canvases, and maybe skateboard blanks, will require an additional charge, in addition to the portraiture design. There is also some extra charges for the paint required to be used. I will work on many mediums including canvases, skateboard blanks, surfboard blanks, motorcycle & other vehicular surfaces, as well as helmet and assorted materials.
I charge roughly labor (8.00 USD) + materials fees + shipping fees if necessary.
Not only am I good at what I do, I enjoy doing it.
Travis Balitz The Airbrush Addict
I charge roughly labor (8.00 USD) + materials fees + shipping fees if necessary.
Not only am I good at what I do, I enjoy doing it.
Travis Balitz The Airbrush Addict
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The Airbrush Addict is in the Making!
1 min read
A once aspiring songwriter/musician, Travis Balitz, has transitioned himself into Airbrush Art, and has formed the company "The Airbrush Addict." Watch him as he continues to churn out awesome artwork on various mediums including canvases, automotive surfaces, helmets, bicycles, skateboards, and the like!
Cheers,
Travis Balitz
Cheers,
Travis Balitz
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